Alright! this is enough. I think this blog is just a waste...no updates and very neglected. How can i possibly say this is a notes of reality when there is no life. It's all my fault because i am not giving life on it. Am i losing tract of my self or my life? The answer is i don't know. All i know is that there's lacking in me and that i don't know. At this moment i am having difficulties collecting my thoughts, its like digging up a very deep hole and yet still can't find answers.